Introduction

The Color of Paradox is a supplemental work that enhances the allegorical interpretations of my fictional work, The Smut Sagas.  This book explores the philosophical dynamics of Eden, Earth and Lovea, including color theory of twin suns and how they relate to the gods.  It is an experiment in thought, to aid the reader in his or her understanding of these worlds and their interactions.

Throughout the course of penning The Smut Sagas, I spent numerous hours determining the finer details of my worlds.  I needed to know not just what happened, but how it happened and why.    God is in the details, and the details piled up.  In an effort to organize my notes and concept art, A Color of Paradox was born.  This book served as my personal reference material while I wrote The Smut Sagas. 

As The Smut Sagas are a parable for my own spiritual process, The Color of Paradox serves as a grimoire, not just for my characters, but for me as well.  The Smut Sagas, together with The Color of Paradox, make up the books of my own personal Bible, a Bible for the twenty-first century, filled with allegories and lessons from the gods, fictions that hold more truth than simple reality can.

Understanding the God-self mindset may seem like a difficult task.  It is a lifelong endeavor of learning and growing.  I don’t want to contemplate the essence of God all day, everyday, for days on end.  I just can’t stop myself.  I am the part of God that contemplates Itself.  I am often that little piece of God’s madness that judges Itself.  Oh how I’d love to always be that part of God that loves Itself and feels peace and contentment, but I’m not.  I’m only allowed that bliss in slivers.  Am I enlightened?  Absolutely.  Am I unenlightened?  Equally so.

My ultimate goal is to redefine the very concept of God. 

As a Priestess of Ishtar, I channel the wisdom of the ancient goddess in an effort to help those who feel abandoned by the gods (including myself, at times) find his or her way back to a magical way of thinking. 

Modern man has so obviously lost his way, for we have lost our connection to God.  The Smut Sagas, together with The Color of Paradox, are designed to help redefine and thus reconnect man to the Godhead, by helping people visualize and thus create a God that we can all call upon and cherish equally, even those of us who have no belief at all.  I am a universalist.  I believe that all gods are real, even those that are imaginary.  I also believe that God both exists and does not exist simultaneously.  The atheist simply worships the aspect of god that does not exist.  I hope to return faith to the faithless and hope to those who feel abandoned by God and thus wallow in despair.  I hope to heal our pain.

In short, I will help you realize that you are God, and just what that means.

When reading The Smut Sagas, the concept As Above, So Below is illustrated in both the stories, and the fact that both reader and author alike are treated as equally important players within the mechanics of style.  The acts of reading and interpreting the books are every bit as significant as the creation of the book, for without a reader, the book is meaningless.

My books work on multiple dimensions and alternate realities.  They will seep into the very fabric of reality and alter your dreams and viewpoints. 

I utilize a combination of fiction and analytical thinking to stimulate both the left and right side of the readers mind in an effort to propel one further down his or her path to enlightenment.  Ideally, the reader should utilize The Color of Paradox to remain engaged in reality and actively thinking, whilst simultaneously imagining the stories in The Smut Sagas (especially Shatter Kinder, which serves as an initiation into god-like thinking).  This technique should change the way the reader perceives the allegories within my fiction, giving them deeper meaning beyond their superficial value.  Reality is subjective.  Everything that is perceived happens in the theatre of the mind.  By utilizing The Color of Paradox in combination with The Smut Sagas, I’m hoping to add some colorful gels to the reader’s stage lights. 

Colors are like the minds of the gods, and exploring them can help one realize his or her path to enlightenment.  Color choices throughout this book are representative.  The burgundy color of the text is the only choice that has no significance.  I picked the color for no other reason than it was easy to read.  And since this burgundy color represents nothing, I also use this color to represent the concepts of “nothing” and “Void.”  The background gray represents neutrality, and occasionally value variations are used to highlight text for the sole purpose of improving legibility.   All other colors used are indicative and consistent, representing specific ideas or clusters of thought forms.

This book utilizes color theory to explain the inner play of both the right and left hand paths of occultism, as well as higher dimensional travel, and is the key to understanding the hidden message from the goddess Ishtar that is contained within my fiction.  This message is intended for occult adepts.  If you don’t see it for yourself, don’t ask me to explain it to you.  I myself am still a student, and as of yet, do not know what the entire message is.  I channel the gods, talk to the gods, walk with the gods, and like you, I am a god, but I have not yet reached my full potential as a student of the occult.

I hope that, when all is said and done, I will achieve total enlightenment and be able to help others find enlightenment as well.  Though I hope to blossom within this lifetime, there is no guarantee, which makes the publishing of this work very important for me.  I’m hoping that by publishing my work, my future incarnations will recognize this work, relate to it, and be able to stand upon my own shoulders to further expand humanities’ collective mind.

The Smut Sagas are interwoven with debauchery and sex, wherein lust is used to invoke a state of mind.  It is not perversion.  It is a message.  It is art.  It’s exercise for the mind.  Mind expansion doesn’t mean to simply elevate one’s thoughts in the highest direction; one must also debase one’s thoughts in the lowest direction.  Only then is the mind truly expanding in a balanced and sustainable fashion.  Masturbating is an occult exercise, every bit as much as meditating is.

Once, I attempted to take classes on the Kabbalah from some local instructors.  It was just some introductory meditation and background classes.  I was aware that it was probably well beneath my current level of understanding, but I hoped I might make some friends, and also, sometimes reviewing the fundamentals can be beneficial to remind yourself of where you are coming from.

It didn’t matter.   These teachers, upon discovering my work, decided that I am evil and would use the powerful techniques they planned to teach me for my nefarious plans, and they just couldn’t have me, or any of my friends, whom they knew nothing about, as students.  Yeah, I know.  I laughed, too, eventually.  At the time it hurt my feelings.  What kinds of jerks pass judgment on people who are seeking enlightenment or even just knowledge?

I’ve since come to realize that there are a lot of people who think enlightenment is only for a certain type of person -- whatever their preconceived concept of an enlightened person is.  They are only willing to teach people who look and think exactly like they do!  They will try to keep occult secrets to themselves and insult anyone who doesn’t fit the mold.  It’s very silly. 

Enlightenment is for everyone, even the damned and cruel.  A sadistic fuck can be every bit as “enlightened” as a compassionate saint.  God is everywhere, even in cruelty.  If you wish, you can use enlightenment to purify your soul as a vessel of God’s true evil.  If it is your path to be damned, then be perfect in your damnation.  Most who seek enlightenment do quest to become angels instead of demons, and those who seek to become demons often call their quest something else altogether (endarkenment LOL).  And some must become demons before they can seek redemption, so who am I, as a teacher, to deny him or her the knowledge required for that path?  Some think of themselves as guardians of occult knowledge.  I just have to laugh at this.  The knowledge is always there, free for anyone and everyone who seek it, and I have no right (or capability) to deny anyone this information. 

Meet the Players
Color	ID #	Uncorrected Appearance
Red	ed1c24	Red
Blue	2e3092	Blue
Green	00a650	Green
Cyan	00adef	Cyan
Magenta	ec008c	Magenta
Yellow	fff200	Yellow
Orange	f68712
Magenta-Red	ec0e58
Purple	8d198f
Cyan Blue	1770c1
Green Cyan	00aaa0
Green Yellow	7fcc29
Yesod Brown	c15a11	Yesod
Tiphareth Gray	747074	Tiphareth
Daath Blue (Sky Blue)	4597d5	Daath
Black	000000
White	ffffff
Neutral Burgundy	800000
Neutral Gray	939598

Note: Uncorrected colors are automatically generated by the computer when images are color inverted in Photoshop.  Because Chaos color is not actual, colors do not convert accurately.

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Color & Frequency Theory ~ The Nature of Paradox (Introduction)

~ Introduction ~

The question of whether or not an ultimate, almighty Paradox exists has plagued humankind and kinder alike since the dawn of time.  But really, the answer is quite simple.  Paradox both exists and doesn’t exist simultaneously, a complex state, which can only be accomplished by, well Paradox.

Now, one must remember what is known about Paradox, based on the reoccurring concepts accepted by the majority of religions & science. 

Paradox is omniscient, which means all knowing.  Paradox knows all and nothing because Paradox is all and nothing.  This idea is summed up in the euphemism, ‘You can only know another by walking a mile in his shoes.’  Paradox knows all, because Paradox is all.

Paradox is omnipotent, which means all-powerful.  What is more powerful than something that is only good?  Something that can be good or evil at will.  Paradox is not good or evil, male or female, black or white.  Paradox just is.

Paradox is omnipresent, which means everywhere.  Paradox is the animus (soul) of all things, from bacteria or a rock to the very air one breathes.  Paradox is everywhere, because Paradox is all things.

Humans and Kinder alike are composed of the same material as every other manifestation, be if flora, fauna, or inanimate object.  Humans and kinder are just matter.  Matter is energy.¹  Everything is just energy.  Living entities are energy at a relatively slower vibration than spirit energy and a relatively higher vibration than inanimate objects.  Energy can be neither created nor destroyed.²  Energy is infinite, like Paradox.  Paradox is energy.

Therefore, the conclusion is that Paradox is all energy perceived in totality and simultaneously, and alternately, no energy perceived by anything (the empty space within an atom and between atoms).  This is the way of Paradox.

Everything in existence is made of energy.  Where does this energy originate?  What is the source of all life, of all energy? 

What is true and believed in most religions is a “universal truth” meaning it is accepted as a fact in the collective unconscious, and therefore, by collective belief, is true.  Accordingly, the godhead created the universe and thus existence.

Scientists theorize that the universe expanded forth from a primeval atom, an all-encompassing singularity.  Out of this big bang, the universe expanded.³  

From where did this primeval atom come from?  How is a singularity formed?  Black holes, which are collapsed large stars, devour surrounding energy, compressing it into a singularity.^4,5,6   Imagine a supreme black hole, which is a black hole so hungry that it gobbles up everything.  Once the supreme black hole sucks everything in, it would become a primeval atom. 

A white hole is the hypothetical antithesis to a black hole, in that it emits matter rather than absorbs matter.⁷   In time, the supreme black hole turned primeval atom becomes overexcited, overheats, and erupts.  Once this primeval atom erupts, and is spewing out all surrounding energy, expanding it into a universe, it is the opposite of a supreme black hole, a supreme white hole. 

These two forces of ingestion and expulsion balance out (inward at one point in time and simultaneously outward at another point in time). The energy caught within the balancing act becomes a giant nuclear furnace, a supreme star.  The energy emitted by this supreme star is the known universe.  This one star repeats itself holographically, appearing to the observer to be all stars, innumerable and including the sun. 

This supreme star is expanding/collapsing until unbalanced, at which point the star goes supreme supernova.  Time starts anew in an infinite loop.  The supreme star is the beginning and the end, the alpha and omega.  The supreme star is infinite, stretching on forever.

Thus, the creation of the universe and everything spilled out from within the sun.  The sun created the universe and all that is in it, the heavens and the earth, and thus life, as did the godhead in many religions. 

Life comes from the stars.  The stars are the points where Paradox’s dreams are manifested. 

A common theme in many religions is that Paradox is “the light.”  People interpret this concept in many ways, but it’s beneficial for the observer to look at it from a scientific standpoint for a moment.

To accelerate to the speed of light, one needs infinite energy, which is infinite mass, which is the mass of all of existence.  As one travels faster, one shrinks and one’s perception of time decreases.  Once the speed of light is reached, one’s size will become zero.⁸  One will disappear, as will time.  One will be infinite, the all and the nothing.  One will be Paradox.

Thus everything is energy, which spills forth from the supreme star, called Paradox, as light, which the observer is not only housed within, but is also composed of.  The gods are nothing more than brilliant rays of sunlight split apart by a prism, each god a different color, and together they are one.

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Color & Frequency Theory ~ Electromagnetic Radiation

Colors are not light, but rather, the perception of how the different wavelengths of light stimulate the eye.¹  Traditional science teaches that all electromagnetic radiation, including the visible light spectrum, consists of a stream of elementary particles called photons, which travel in a wave-like pattern at the speed of light and have zero rest mass.²  All matter, including light, exhibits properties of both waves and particles, known as wave-particle duality.³  “Each photon contains a certain amount of energy,” and “the only difference between the various types of electromagnetic radiation is the amount of energy found in the photons.  Radio waves have photons with low energies” and the longest wavelengths, while gamma-rays have the smallest wavelengths and are the most energetic of all.⁴

There is no other distinction between the highest energy X-rays and the lowest energy gamma rays (10 keV and a few hundred keV) than the origin of the radiation.  Gamma rays are formed by nuclear transitions, whereas X-rays are the product of accelerating electrons.⁵

Positive Energy Correspondence Table 7, 8, 9, 10
Description	Wavelength	Frequency	Energy
No Energy /Paradox /Singularity	0	0	0
Inanimate Objects
Ghosts
Subsonic
Sound (human range)		20 Hz – 20,000 Hz
Sick Humans		42 – 58 Hz
Healthy Humans		62 – 68 Hz
Kinder - Petty
Kinder – Normal
Kinder - Divine
Begin Electromagnetic Radiation
Radio	100,000 km to 1 mm	3 Hz to 300 GHz	< 10-5 eV
Microwave	10cm - 0.01cm	3 x 109 - 3×1012    Hz	10-5 - 0.01 eV
Infrared	750 nm to 1 mm	3 x 10^12 to 4.3 x 10^14 Hz	0.01 - 2 eV
Red Light	780 nm  to 622 nm	384 to 482 THz	2 eV
Orange Light	622 nm to 597 nm	482 to 503 THz
Yellow Light	597 nm to 577 nm	503 to 520 THz
Green Light	577 nm to 492 nm	520 to 610  THz
Blue Light	492 nm to 455 nm	610 to 659 THz
Violet Light	455 nm to 390 nm	659 to 769THz	3 eV
Ultraviolet Light	400 nm to 10 nm	7.5 x 10^14 to 3 x 10^17 Hz	3 - 103 eV
X-Ray**	10 nm to 0.01 nm	3 x 10^17 to 3 x 10^19 Hz	103 - 105 eV
Gamma Ray**	< 10-12 m	> 3 x 10^19 Hz	> 105 eV
End Electromagnetic Radiation
Cosmic Ray individual particles
Ultra High Energy Cosmic Ray	3 × 10-15 m	1023 Hz
All Energy /Paradox /Infinity	0	0	0

Negative Energy Correspondence Table
Description	Wavelength	Frequency	Energy
No Energy /Paradox/Singularity	0	0	0
Anti Inanimate Objects
Anti Ghosts
Anti Subsonic
Anti Sound (human range)		-20 Hz – 20,000 Hz
Anti Sick Humans		-42 – 58 Hz
Anti Healthy Humans		-62 – 68 Hz
Kinder - Petty
Kinder - Normal
Kinder - Divine
Begin Anti Electromagnetic Radiation
Anti Radio	-100,000 km to -1 mm	-3 Hz to -300 GHz	-(< 10-5) eV
Anti Microwave	-10cm to -0.01cm	-(3 x 109 ) to -(3×1012) Hz	-(10-5 - 0.01) eV
Ultra Cyan	-750 nm to -1 mm	-(3 x 10^12 ) to –(4.3 x 10^14)Hz	-(0.01 – 2) eV
Cyan Light	-780 nm  to  -622 nm	-384 to -482 THz	-2 eV
Cyan Blue Light	-622 nm to -597 nm	-482 to -503 THz
Blue Light	-597 nm to -577 nm	-503 to -520 THz
Magenta Light	-577 nm to -492 nm	-520 to -610  THz
Yellow Light	-492 nm to -455 nm	-610 to -659 THz
Green Yellow Light	-455 nm to -390 nm	-659 to -769THz	-3 eV
Infra Green Yellow Light	-400 nm to -10 nm	-(7.5 x 10^14) to –(3 x 10^17) Hz	-(3 - 103)eV
Anti X-ray**	-10 nm to -0.01 nm	-(3 x 10^17) to –(3 x 10^19) Hz	-(103 - 105) eV
Anti Gamma ray**	-( < 10-12)m	-( > 3 x 10^19) Hz	-(> 105) eV
End Anti Electromagnetic Radiation
Anti Cosmic Ray
Ultra High Energy Cosmic Ray	-(3 × 10-15)m	-1023 Hz
All Anti Energy /Paradox /Infinity	0	0	0

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